I mentioned in May that I had sent a letter about school/distance issues to the Dean of the School of Information, Communication and Library Science at SCSU. Well, I hadn’t gotten any response. I want to note that I thought there was something funky with the email address that I had used – so it is entirely possible that the dean never actually received the email. Because I am a naturally reticent person, I hesitated to send another email – I didn’t want to badger the guy. However, I really needed to follow up. After consulting with my advisor, I re-sent the initial email to the dean (and the email address doesn’t look wonky). So, let’s see what happens now. Again, I’m having fun with flickr. No other reason than that for the picture. Venice is a magnificent city – and I’m so glad that I had the opportunity to visit it.
Originally uploaded by ScruffyNerf.
While in Vegas, we went here about 5 times. I guess this means it might just qualify as my favorite place in the city itself (it certainly can’t really compare to the Grand Canyon or the Hoover Dam. However, I will admit to being extremely disappointed that most places in Las Vegas served Pepsi. I hate this type of monopoly. Why can’t places serve both products (and/or others as well)?
. . . this, from the Disorganized Librarian, caught my eye. I’m no artist, so this list isn’t in the spirit of the original question. However, those practical types among us find inspiration and comfort in things too. These are things that sustain me.
- Reading fiction – I love to curl up with a good book. I currently have about 25 unread books waiting for me to read when this semester is over. I can hardly wait.
- Chocolate – either Hershey’s or in the form of chocolate chip cookies – Chocolate can take my stress away like little else.
- Bubble baths – I often combine this relaxing treat with #1 and #2. Heaven!
- Coca-Cola – This is about all I drink. I become disgruntled when I go out and the establishment only serves Pepsi. FYI, Pepsi has a huge foothold in Las Vegas – which made me very sad!
- Salt and Vinegar potato chips – I’m a big fan of potato chips (and really potatoes) in general. However, Wise Salt and Vinegar potato chips make me happy.
- My collection of tv shows on DVD – I often look forward to having large blocks of free time to sit and watch hours of a series. I haven’t been able to do much of this since I enrolled in school, but look forward to when I will have time for it again.
- Early morning phone conversations with my best friend on the weekends – We don’t have these conversations much any more, but when we do, it puts a huge smile on my face for the rest of the day.
- My husband – He makes me laugh more than anyone else in the whole world – and quite often when I need a laugh the most.
There seems to be lots of imbalance out there among library bloggers right now. I can’t tell you how comforting that is. My life is so out of whack – and has been for at least a year. I find that school has an uncanny and insidious way of throwing me so far out of balance that I find it nearly impossible to remember what it felt like to be well adjusted. School can easily take over one’s life. Having to read, digest, think critically, and write – all on a strict timeline while having to juggle work and family at the same time – can make me crazy. Trying to come up with topics for papers and projects can drive me utterly insane. In some ways, I just don’t care enough to come up with a topic about which I am interested in learning. I get to a point where I get so tired of it all that I just want to walk away, curl up in a ball and immerse myself in mindless activities.
This is sort of where I am – and where I have been since March of this year. My patience with school is at an all time low. It affects me mentally – it affects how I do my job (at least in my mind) – it affects my relationships with people that mean everything to me – and not in a good way. Knowing how I am and how I function, I doubt that I will be able to find real balance until I am done with school. I am hanging on because I am too close to the end to even contemplate walking away – or even contemplate taking a break. But, I am a bit burnt out. I’m hoping that life will be a bit easier over the next two semesters because I will only be taking one class each term. But unless I can find a way to be more positive about school, I doubt it.
I think back to how excited I was about going to graduate school two years ago – how much I was hoping to learn – how much I wanted to grow and expand my horizons. It is a little disconcerting to see how jaded I have become. I’m often disappointed in my lack of interest in some classes – and in the level of effort that I am willing to give. Some of this is due in a massive part to some of the issues and problems that are specific to SCSU’s program rather than library school itself. However, this space in which I am currently residing isn’t really a fun place to be.